I have no idea what's up with me lately. I just have NO desire to run, or even exercise for that matter. I'm not being particularly lazy. My ass has not been parked on the couch eating bon-bons. I've been busy doing things, constantly moving, though I have no idea what I'm actually doing.
Exercise has always been the easy part for me. I love it! My diet is the thing I usually struggle with, but a run or any type of workout has always been welcomed and enjoyed.
I have not run since last Wednesday. And in fact, I haven't had a good, enjoyable run in some time. I only have 16 miles logged so far this month, which is unheard of for me. It's sad, but I can already see my mileage goal for the year slipping away, and that doesn't bother me right now either.
I had planned to run Thursday, then put that off to Friday, then decided on a short one Saturday and a long run Sunday. Not one of those materialized.
Don't know if it's the weather. I'm sick of the gray. Sick of the rain. Sick of the cold. And plain just a little sick with a very slight nagging sore throat, not enough to really bother me, I'm just calling in excuses. Also this darn leg just is NOT getting any better, it's not bad, but like the throat it's just hanging around reminding me every once in a while that it's not 100%. But even putting that aside I have no DESIRE to run. Even when I've been injured before and unable to run, I've still WANTED to, ached to. This is quite foreign for me.
I can't even say that I'm in a funk. In fact, life has been treating me pretty darn good lately for the most part and I feel very content. It couldn't be that simple though could it? Could being happy & content leave me with no 'need' to workout and find endorphins there? It's a theory, though I don't believe it.
My half marathon is in 4 weeks. THEE half marathon! The one to redeem myself. The one to PR. And I haven't trained ONE BIT, and right now I don't care to. This is so unusual for me.
I will still do it, but it will not be what I had hoped for, what I signed up for. I will just get through it, to say I did it. If I hadn't already registered I wouldn't bother. I'm pretty sure I'll enjoy it anyway, but even if I managed to step things up right now I don't think I'd achieve the goals I had set out for originally.
Sigh ... for now I sit here just waiting for the fire to reignite. Until then I hope at least you ....