Why do I not give up? Because ... I know that to do so will make me miserable. It will make all the hard work I've done over the years a complete waste of time. So, while I still may struggle, I will continue to fight until I can get my feet firmly planted on the ground.
I AM making some headway. Very slowly.
If you check out the goal list for May on my sidebar you will see an increasing number of check marks. Not so much in the RUN category, but definitely elsewhere. That show's me improvement.
The weather here is still challenging. You'd think it was March with the amount of rain we've had, and often heavy rain at that. I could almost see myself riding the bike in a drizzle, but not the donwpours we've been subjected to. I did manage to ride on Friday and again today. I sure like riding!
The eating still continues to be a struggle. Everyday!
The other morning before I got out of bed I told myself that today I would start on the right foot. If I want to drop these pounds, I have to make better choices. Rolled out of bed, 2 minutes or less in the bathroom, strolled into the kitchen to make tea. Hmmm, hmmm, hmmmm ... laaa deee daaaa .... WHAT THE ???????? HOW did that cookie get halfway down my throat?! Seriously, this is how easily it happens. Where did my brain go? How could I forget the conversation I had JUST had with myself?!
This is when the challenge stepped in. There were two more cookies left. Now, I know that many of you would say to throw them away, give them away, put them away. Me ... I'm too stubborn for that. Those cookies would be my challenge. Besides, I am the one with a problem, not my family. Why should I throw them away (or not have them) just because I can't control myself. I don't believe the issue is not having them around, it's me learning to enjoy such things in moderation.
I had a day planned of housework that would have me passing through the kitchen all day long. I vowed not to touch those cookies all day.
Everytime I saw those cookies it became a reminder, a challenge, to question myself on what I really wanted most. Cookies was NOT the answer.
I have to continue to face these challenges and to overcome them.