Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Fake It 'til you Make It

I do not need chocolate. 
I do not need pretzels.  
I do not need sherbet.  
I do not need goldfish crackers.
I do not need toast with peanut butter.
I do not need an English Toffee Cappuccino.
I do not need a Fruit Smoothie.

These are the mantras I have been trying to repeat to myself all day yesterday and today.

I've been trying to intuitively eat for a while now ... and I'm just not having any success.  The weight is not going down.  So yesterday, I fell back to an old friend and my world is a little challenging at the moment.  I know I have to go through this.

I planned out a great healthy menu yesterday.  By 2:00 I was ready to eat the drywall in my office.  Going from zero to 60 is not easy, I know that.  Seriously, I drank so much tea trying to squelch the cravings I thought I might float away ... and I was still craving food, any food.  I did manage not to venture out and pick up a little somethin'-somethin' in the afternoon.

Unfortunately my resolve did not hold and when I got home I devoured a much too large serving (much, MUCH too large) of Goldfish cracks (pretzel and multi-colored ... a girl needs some variety ya know!).  Followed by a bowl of cereal, some salad and a little more than I needed Nutella.  YUM!  I did however not bother eating dinner with the family later (like I had any room left - pfffffttttttt!).

While yesterday didn't go perfectly, it was a step in the right direction.  I actually appreciated the feeling of hunger, because honestly I haven't felt that in a while and I need to get in touch with that.  It's about finding that balance and that will take a little more practice.  Today has been better, although it's only 3PM so we'll have to wait and see.  Yesterday I'd finished my lunch before noon, today I toughed it out and waited, plus had a great snack in the afternoon  ... Edamame

A 9 oz bag (from Costco in the US) has 158 calories, 6 g fat, 4 g fiber, and 13g protein.  This makes a large serving and totally keeps me satisfied not only from the protein, but it's also something that takes a bit of time to eat which is a good thing for me.  I just ♥ this stuff!

Ran 9.7 miles on the weekend ... lost count of the # of stops, but made it through.  Flat route along the ocean side, very pleasant.  Knocked me out cold for the rest of the day.  This getting back in shape thing still sucks.  Yes, 9.7 miles is a very respectable distance for most runners, but there was a time not so long ago where I would have banged that out any day, without stopping and continued on with my day without issue.  Mentally I'm still having a hard time accepting that, but there's nothing I can do but work my way back there.  At the moment I'm forcing it until it becomes easier.



Teamarcia said...

Hang tough on the food cravings girl--it gets easier I promise! Almost 10 miles is GREAT!

misszippy said...

Stick to it--before you know it clean is what you will crave. And 9.7 is a very legit number!

Lori Lynn said...

Definitely know what those cravings are like!! I love edamame. Once I discovered it, I couldn't get enough of it!

Syl said...

oh Heidi we all have those moments,for me it's usually if I allow myself to get too hungry I get into a bad situation.
One meal at a time my friend. Glad one of us was able to get out for a run, I'm sooooo sick of renos ;-(
Love Edamane, it's a great snack! HAve you tried chocolate covered Edamane? Maybe I shouldn't of told you about that... ;-)

ajh said...

I have some of this in my freezer. I need to make it.

Fran said...

I had to look up the Edamame (blush) Don't think they sell this here, never seen it.

I would suggest to keep on going with your intuitive eating, it will go better, that's what I believe. Like Syl says: one meal at a time.

And to me: 9.7 miles is a very good and impressive distance! Don't worry about the walk breaks, I still have them. And I know we both will get back to our old running level. We just got to keep moving.

Have a great day Heidi.

Fran said...

And that great day is of course for tomorrow LOL as my comment is posted at almost midnight for you :)

Anonymous said...

those are some great mantras. i need to add 'i do not need chips' and 'i do not need wine'.

i love edamame tho! a great snack that is delicious and nutritious!

9.7 miles...yay! great job.

Marcelle said...

We are so tough on ourselves when it comes to eating as we know inside the right and wrong foods, but sometimes the wrong foods are just so much easier to reach out for and to eat.
I sometimes wish someone would lay all my food out for me and give me no choice...LOL...that way I will know i WILL stick to a plan...at the moment I am also trying to stick to a plan, but will open a packet of nuts...which is good for you hey, but then I want to eat the whole packet...and do within two days.....I have no control...

Missy said...

My first day on my eating plan was FILLED with cravings. Oh my goodness. Sucks. Good luck eating better - tell those goldfish to be quiet ;o)

PS - Edamame is one of my favorite snacks too! I love it!