I wasn't going to share this next bit until I came across Darcy's most recent post. I was hoping to get a couple weeks under my belt and then share ... but I think it will benefit me most to get this out there. Stop being afraid of failure.
Over the last few weeks I've hinted on and off that I was struggling. After my disappointing first half in March I was really left feeling down. I slacked on the workouts, then I started slacking on my eating as well. I was already struggling with eating a bit before the half ... but afterwards it got worse.
This post is I think where I really started to make that first step back off that ledge. It's been a HUGE, LONG step and it's been tough. I had let it all unravel so fast and it has been quite the struggle to reel it back in. I think I find it harder to repair and restart the engine than to get it started the very first time.
I spent weeks having do-overs. Wake up with the greatest plans and let it fall apart by mid-day, or certainly before the day was up. Eventually I turned back to counting Weight Watchers points (the most successful method for me) ... but that was slow to take hold too. I spent a couple weeks counting .. in my head, but rarely ever writing things down. Then there were the days I'd write it down, but it would get ugly and I'd not finish the day or I'd rip out the page to start fresh the next day.
The workouts were back in order by mid-April, but the eating was still an issue.
A week ago I finally called BULLSH&T! Enough of this half-assing around. Do I want to lose this last pudgy tummy roll or not? Yes ... yes I do. It HAS to come from my diet. I can't put garbage in and expect diamonds. I work too hard for this.
I don't even know exactly what my total damage was. At some point in March I was 146.2, but I think that was a fleeting moment. I've bounced between 147-149 regularly and it was becoming more and more on the higher end. It definitely bounced up to over 151 at one point. I was 143.6 last November so I had put on about 8 lbs!
Last Tuesday I finally wrote down my weight and since then I have gotten back to what works for me. Every night I preplan my meals for the next day. Every morning and night I get on that scale AND write down my weight ...although I only "count" my weekly weight. EVERY day I write down what I've eaten and record the points.
The results ...
Apr 27 - 149.4
May 4 - 146.8
Loss - 2.6 lbs
I'm super happy with that. Now I just have to keep the momentum up. No fizzling after one successful week. The roller coaster ride is O-V-E-R!