Friday, December 3, 2010

Darn Brick Walls

I keep asking myself .. what have I done so wrong in this world?  I think I'm a good/decent person.

Honestly I'm getting a little sick of climbing these brick walls.


Last week we finally got a break on a job we'd been waiting on, but then something happened and it cost us all our profits.

Yesterday afternoon my friend called me to see what I was up to for the evening.  I had nothing planned.  Said I would go home, see what's up and probably do a short run.  Not 5 minutes later I get a call from home.  Excessive rain + frost coming out of the ground + overgrown bushes & grass blocking an outflow pipe = water backed up and flooding my basement.

My basement that holds all my storage stuff including all the Christmas decorations.  My basement that also is my gym.  It seems we got it just in time so there was relatively little damage.  There goes my "quiet" night with no plans.  The entire evening was spent cleaning up, clearing out, sorting, reorganizing and salvaging.  And no, no time for a run which I would have MUCH preferred.

Every time there is a light at the end of the tunnel .... it's just another train coming to run us over.


My sister says my ship is just out in the ocean bobbing around, waiting to come in.  I'm placing bets that it will sink just before it gets to shore.  Or better yet, before it sinks it will hit something and we'll be 100% at fault.

I'm not looking for sympathy.  No, no, no!  This is NOT a pity party.  Often people ask me how I find the time to run so much.  As we all know, if you want to do something bad enough you find the time.  For me it's essential.  If I sat around thinking of all the stress in my life I'd quite simply go mad and it wouldn't change anything.  I enjoy to run and don't see myself ever choosing to stop.  I wouldn't say I'm driven by the stress in my life to run ... but boy, oh boy does it ever help.  There is nothing like knocking off a good hard or long run to bring calm, help you sleep, blow off steam, or just to forget for a little while.

Of course having amazing friends & family helps too.  Just this morning the world was crushing down on me.  Some days are harder than others.  And then I received a message from a dear friend that was so sweet and just brought me to tears (you know who you are).  I don't have many close friends in my life, but those that I do have are the best.  Their support and understanding means everything.  One day I'll make it through this ... hopefully in one piece! :)

Have an amazing weekend!

Keep Active!

Heidi
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11 comments:

Syl said...

Hang on Heidi, 2010 is almost over, 2011 will be YOUR year, I can just feel it!

Marlene said...

Bah!! I hope things turn around for you soon! Glad you have the support you need when times get tough. Have a good weekend!!! :)

Nej said...

Glad to hear there wasn't much damage in the basement!!!!!!!!!!!

ajh said...

Hope things turn around immediately!

Marcelle said...

I felt your pain reading this entry and didn't for one minute think u wanted a pity party here in blogland...This entry is so real...real life...what happens...
So sorry you had to go through this ~ but know the amazing woman you are you will go through this time then bounce back ~ big cyber hug from Cape Town...to YOU!!

Terri said...

Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that you're struggling. Sending some positive thoughts your way for a better year in 2011!

Lucy K said...

Huge "hope" hug to you! Things will turn around .... I am sure of it!

Fran said...

I'm with Syl, 2010 is almost over and 2011 will be YOUR year! I can't imagine that things will turn around for you eventually, it always does for everybody. I've had my most difficult times 10 years ago and I got out stronger and so will you!

Keep your head up Heidi, it will get better!

Big hug!

99ToGo said...

Ugh. I feel for you and all the junk you've been dealing with. That silver lining could be that you CAN run. I don't have a basement (so no chance for a flood!) but my hip has kept me from running, and probably will for another month or so (if not indefinitely) and it really stinks to lose that part of my life. I guess God knows that I couldn't handle the craziness AND the inability to 'run it off' all at the same time...

destination262 said...

I think that is what is called LIfe. I always feel like when things seem too good something comes and causes a stir. I am sorry for your troubles and hope it's happy and calm again for you soon!

Missy said...

Ugh, when it rains it pours huh. Hopefully the sun comes out soon!!!