Then there's the things I can't control, but that worry me more.
A while ago I mentioned some serious health issues going on with a family member. Early in September I got a call from my Mom that something was wrong. Before long we got the diagnosis that she had uterine cancer. This was a real blow, something you think just happens to other people, until you ARE the 'other' people.
What I have learned is that there really is no routine screening for uterine cancer. Your annual PAP tests do not detect it. Typically it occurs after menopause and is more common in women who are obese or who have taken hormone replacement therapy (neither of which describes my Mom).
I found this online which I think woman should take great note of:
Obesity is another significant risk factor; the risk of endometrial cancer triples for a woman who is 30 pounds overweight and increases five times for a woman who is 50 pounds overweight. “Of all cancers, endometrial cancer is most strongly linked to obesity,” said Karen Lu, M.D., an assistant professor in the Department of Gynecologic Oncology. “Any obese woman who has irregular periods should have an endometrial biopsy.”
My Mom never took hormone replacement drugs and while she was slightly overweight years ago, she lost (I think) about 20 lbs and has kept it off for quite some time now.
Anyhow, a few weeks ago she had to have a full hysterectomy to remove the uterus and lymphnodes. They did a very minimal incision and I was surprised at how well she recovered. After the hysterectomy they ran tests to determine if they did in fact remove all the cancer.
The reports came back that they thought they had got it all (they couldn't confirm 100%) but that the cancer was very deep in her uterus (though not in any lymphnodes) and they felt that she should follow through with chemotherapy and radiation as a precaution.
Yesterday was her first of three chemo sessions. Again, she's doing alot better than we had expected and as of today hasn't felt sick (though they do expect that will come). I'm just hoping that it isn't too bad for her.
So all of this is weighing heavily on my mind as well. My parents live about 4 hrs away from me, and at the moment there is a potentially snowy pass between us.
Then yesterday afternoon, my husband had an accident with his excavator that easily could have killed him (involving downed power lines). He was told that approx. 20% of the people in this situation get killed and that he's very lucky, which we are very thankful for. However, this is a financial hit that our company really doesn't need. I'm sick just thinking of what the total bill will come to.
Ya know ... I've never thought of myself as an emotional eater, but with all this going on it certainly seems to match up with the extra eating I've been doing lately. Though yesterday I did track everything and stayed in my calorie range (though a bit higher than I would have liked).
I'm having such a hard time lately even determining hunger. Last night I had a fairly light dinner and some pumpkin bread I made (sooo good) and then I felt sickenly full all night. For the amount I ate I shouldn't have felt that full. I even woke up this morning feeling like I'd just eaten 4000+ calories in a buffet. There was no way I could eat breakfast.
I figured I would wait until I actually got hungry to eat ... but by 12:00 I still couldn't really detect hunger. I ate anyway, a sub sandwich, because I didn't want to be ravenous late this afternoon.
Now I sit here feeling gross again. My stomach feels all bloated.
I suppose the only thing I can do is take control of what I can control. I CAN control what I eat. I CAN control how much I exercise. I CAN catch up on my bookkeeping to reduce my stress levels. The rest I just have to have faith in....